Faigy Mayer posted old family pictures minutes before she jumped

She broke free from the iron-tight grip of her ultra-conservative Hasidic community — only to kill herself after years of struggling with that decision.

Tortured soul Faigy Mayer, who leaped to her death from a trendy Manhattan roof bar Monday night, was shunned by her parents for choosing to live in the secular world, relatives and friends told The Post.

The tragic woman, 30, posted touching old family photos on Facebook just six minutes before she climbed over the ledge of the 230 Fifth Rooftop Bar in the Flatiron ­District at 6:45 p.m. and jumped.

“My family refuses to allow me to have my baby pictures so finding these pics were cool!” the woman wrote above the snapshots.

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Her final words were to a bartender — whom she asked, “Where’s the east deck?’’ a law-enforcement source said.

The question was laden with symbolism. Jewish people pray in that ­direction, toward Jerusalem.

After the bartender pointed, Mayer walked over to a 4¹/₂-foot brick wall along the roof and put one leg over it, then the other, the source said.

The bartender ran to her and grabbed her hand, but she pulled loose and jumped, the source said.

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Mayer’s death came after years of battling manic depression — and her Brooklyn family’s devastating rejection over her decision to leave the faith, relatives and friends said.

In 2009, she appeared in a National Geographic documentary called ­“Inside Hasidism” — admitting that her loss of faith was a long time coming.

“It was actually at the age of 3 that I already showed no interest in Yiddish or Hebrew,” she said.

After she openly began eschewing the faith, “My parents, they were like, point blank, ‘You have to get out of here because you are not religious anymore,’ ” she said.

A source in the community who knew Mayer said, “Once you don’t feel loved by your own parents, it’s the end of the world. You hate yourself. You don’t want to live.”

Mayer’s parents’ biggest fear became a reality after she left home — one of her sisters also ­renounced their religion.

“[Mayer] was very worried about her sister all the time,’’ the source said.

But she put up a good front, defiantly mocking her former faith.

Mayer boasted on Twitter that she loved bacon, and skewered ­ultra-Orthodox wedding customs on Facebook.

“Hahaha my people are hilarious, putting the bride on a leash while covering her as if she’s the devil. #onlydogsneedleashes,” Mayer wrote July 5 in a post with a video about a “mitzvah tantz,” or custom dance.

The clip showed a man dancing in front of a bride and holding one end of a sash attached to the woman, whose face is veiled.

But inside, her distance from her family was destroying her.

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View of the Empire State Building from the rooftop bar at 230 Fifth in New York.Photo: Chad Rachman

A source described one particularly heartbreaking attempt by Mayer to connect with another family after being rejected by her own.

“She loved family. She used to beg to baby-sit the rabbi’s kids,’’ the source said. “It was like an outlet to relieve her pain, caring for the babies. It was a tremendous connection for her.’’

Mayer’s parents were still so bitter about her renunciation of their lifestyle that some of their anger continued even after her death, another source said.

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A makeshift memorial for Faigy Mayer outside 230 Fifth.Photo: Chad Rachman

Her family told her ex-Orthodox friends that her funeral would be at noon Tuesday — then scheduled it for 2 p.m., the source said.

“The family did not want the friends to show up to the funeral. It’s disgusting,” the source said.

Still, her parents and siblings attended her service in Borough Park. About one-third of the 150 mourners were ex-Orthodox.

And her stricken dad offered an olive branch to those from outside the community when he stood to speak — opening his eulogy in English rather than Yiddish.

“I did not prepare my speech in English. I apologize. I really ­appreciate you coming,’’ he said.

The dad then said in Yiddish, “We’re never going to recover.”

A source close to the family said Mayer was bipolar and schizophrenic, having been in and out of mental institutions for years.

“She changed her personalities almost as often as she changed socks,’’ the woman said.

A friend and fellow ex-Hasid, Srully Stein, 23, said Mayer also was “brilliant . . . a genius.’’ She was working on an app to help former Hasids like herself in New York City, friends said.

On June 30, Mayer posted a photo on Facebook of a mural at the High Line park.

“Yes, life is beautiful!” she wrote, standing in front of the pink letters with a paint roller in her hand.

A friend commented on the photo early Tuesday, writing: “Wish you believed it, girl. *hugs*”

Additional reporting by Amber Sutherland, Yaron Steinbuch, Kathleen Culliton

Call Schumer to Publicly Oppose and Fight Iran Deal: Hikend

Assemblyman Dov Hikind (D-Brooklyn) called on Senator Charles Schumer (D-New York) to publicly oppose the Iran deal and to commit to leading the fight to stop it in Congress. 

“We’ve listened to Senator Schumer for years and how he takes every opportunity to explain the origin of his name Schumer and what it means for him to be a proud “Shomer”—which in Hebrew means protector. From your time as Congressman to one of the most powerful members of the Senate, Senator Schumer, you have repeatedly called yourself our ‘shomer’ (protector). Now is the time to live up to your claim and put your words into action. We need you to demonstrate leadership on one of most critical foreign policy issues of our time. Be our protector and stop this terrible deal,” said Hikind.

Hikind added, “Senator Schumer says he will “do the right thing.” These are unprecedented times and it’s time to stop this deal, which is disastrous for America and our allies in the Middle East. This will define your legacy. Please do not allow partisan politics or any other considerations to cloud your judgment."

“I call upon all New Yorkers to contact Senator Schumer’s office – call him at 202-224-6542, Tweet him @SenSchumer, e-mail him, let him know how you feel. Senator Schumer is a powerful voice in Congress and he needs to hear from you. Now is not the time to be silent.”

Contact Information for Senator Charles E. Schumer
New York:
Phone: 212-486-4430
Fax: 202-228-2838

Washington, D.C.:
Phone: 202-224-6542
Fax: 202-228-3027

Web: http://www.schumer.senate.gov/contact/email-chuck
Twitter: @SenSchumer

Faigy Mayer dies jumping off roof in Manhattan UPDATED!

At the scene of her death

A woman jumped 20 stories to her death from a swanky rooftop bar in the Flatiron District Monday night.

As onlookers sipped pricey drinks at the 230 Fifth Rooftop Bar during a corporate party at 7:30 p.m., 30-year-old Faigy Mayer suddenly sprinted toward a row of bushes that lined the edge of the establishment, cops and onlookers said.

She went through the shrubbery, over a wall and plummeted to the sidewalk on West 27th Street, shocking pedestrians.

“I was waking across the street and I saw she was falling,” said Dale Martin, who witnessed the tragedy. “You can tell it was a lady. She had on shoes and a dress.”

The section of the bar where Mayer jumped was cordoned off by police as they investigated.

“There was a big corporate party up there and she kind of ran through them [the partygoers] and jumped,” said another witness Becky Whittemore.

“They closed off the section where she jumped from. I think a lot of the people up there had zero clue what was going on.”

Officials recovered two bags that might have belonged to the victim, a purse and a backpack.

UPDATE!

The woman who jumped to her death from a rooftop bar in the Flatiron District Monday night was a former Hasidic Jew who carved a new path in the secular world as an app developer – but apparently harbored deep-rooted unhappiness.

Faigy Mayer, 30, who leapt 20 stories from the 230 Fifth Rooftop Bar during a corporate party Monday night, described herself on Twitter as a “Former #hasid who codes in #iOS.”

Mayer was the founder and CEO of Appton, a New York-based mobile and web solutions startup, according to her LinkedIn page.

She wrote on Twitter that she loved coding, bacon, the Apple Watch – and life.

On June 30, she posted a photo on Facebook of a mural at the High Line.

“Yes, life is beautiful!” she wrote with a paint roller in her hand standing in front of the pink letters.

A friend commented on the photo early Tuesday morning, writing: “Wish you believed it, girl. *hugs*”

The tragic techie also was an avid foodie, with her last photo on Instagram showing a close-up view of her bibimbap – a signature Korean dish – from Bonchon on 38th Street.

She also has uploaded pictures of matzoh ball soup from Katz’s Deli, a thai dish from Kiin Thai Eatery and a breakfast sandwich from BEC.

But her lively public pronouncements belied serious problems in her life.

“The word is out that she was an unhappy person who had left the community. She has a history of emotional problems and was seeing a psychiatrist,” a Hasidic source told The Post.

On June 21, she posted about needing some help moving out of her Brooklyn pad.

“Paid job: looking for someone to help me move on Sunday, June 28, from Greenpoint to a 20 min drive away. Have 12 boxes to move. Need you to drive a car,” she wrote.

Ari Mandel, who posted his recollections of Mayer on Facebook, told The Post that she had been “fairly open” about suffering from depression.

“She was in and out of mental institutions every so often. In between, she was a really lovely person,” he said. “She was working on an app. The app was meant for ex-Hasidim. We had talked about working on it and then I got busy so we never went through it.”

He said her death doesn’t come as a complete shock.

“But it’s not any sadder and it doesn’t suck any less,” he said, noting that she had struggled with family issues after her strict upbringing in Williamsburg.

He also said she may have been upset because of trouble finding a new apartment.

“I know that her lease had run out and I know she was struggling to find housing very recently and that may have something to do with it. But who knows? I don’t know what made her do it. Maybe she felt like there was no way out,” he said.

The young woman appeared in a 2009 National Geographic documentary called “Inside Hasidism,” in which she described her decision to leave her insular ultra-Orthodox Belz communities of Williamsburg and Boro Park in Brooklyn.

“It was actually at the age of three that I already showed no interest in Yiddish or Hebrew,” she said on the show. “It was just like so challenging, like the whole transition.”

Mayer hooked up with Footsteps, a NewYork-based organization that helps Ultra-Orthodox men and women in their challenging journeys into secular society.

Mayer graduated summa cum laude from Touro College with a bachelor’s in accounting and earned a master’s in accounting from Brooklyn College. She also earned a certificate in Data Science Specialization from Johns Hopkins University this year.

Among the apps she said she developed were NYCTips, a Big Apple restaurant tip calculator, a parking app called Carma and All About Hasids.

In a recent Facebook posting, Mayer made a telling observation on Ultra-Orthodox wedding customs.

“Hahaha my people are hilarious, putting the bride on a leash while covering her as if she’s the devil. #onlydogsneedleashes,” she wrote July 5 in a post with a video about a “mitzvah tantz,” or custom dance.

The clip shows a man dancing in front of a bride as he holds onto one end of a sash as the other end is attached to the woman, whose face is covered by a veil.

A Hasidic volunteer who helped clean up the scene of the tragedy Monday night said his group found out Mayer was Jewish because a friend who had been with her contacted the Hasidic community.

“It was very tough. It’s never easy to do these things. It’s hard on the volunteers. We do it to maintain religious rites and decorum. But it’s very hard, especially when you know that it’s somebody very young,” the volunteer told The Post about the cleanup task.

“It’s an important mission that is very difficult to accomplish because of the background behind it. When you’re going to help somebody who is 90 years old who passed away versus somebody who is so young and had her whole life ahead of her it just makes the job 10 times harder,” he said.

Mayer jumped from the 230 Fifth Rooftop Bar during a corporate party at 7:30 p.m. after running toward a row of bushes that lined the edge of the establishment, cops and onlookers said.

She landed on the sidewalk on West 27th Street, shocking pedestrians.

It was not immediately known if Mayer was connected to the party.

After the tragedy, some bar patrons still enjoyed table service at the bar, where bottles can fetch as much as $300 each.

Supporters of Taubenfeld mock Victim at Abuse Trial!

Posted by Pesach Sommer

I know that I can’t have held my breath for 1 ½ hours this past Friday. Still, as i sat in the courtroom listening to Laiby Stern testify about the abuse he suffered at the hands of his former neighbor Moshe Menachem Taubenfeld, a powerful and influential member of the chassidic community in New Square, I felt like I couldn’t breathe.

As I listened to Laiby as he was cross-examined by the defense lawyer I felt so many different emotions rise up inside of me. Perhaps the strongest emotion that I felt was anger. Anger at the dozens of men who were there to support Taubenfeld. Men who smiled, smirked, and even laughed each time Stern, who has a learning disability, was tripped up by the high-paid defense attorney. Anger at a community that instinctively circles the wagons around its most powerful members, rather than protecting those who are most vulnerable. Anger at a community that refuses to recognize the dangers posed by abusers in their community, where the abuser might receive, at most, a beating and a warning to not do it again, or, if they are influential enough, no consequence at all. I also felt anger at the the fact that the community fears the outside world more than it fears its children being hurt, and anger that it blames the victim for any subsequent problems  he or she might face, rather than holding the abuser responsible.

After the trial, I heard about how other victims of abuse in New Square and other chassidic communities are following this case, anxiously waiting to see whether it’s worth it to come forward to bring charges. If Laiby loses his cases, these young people will take it as a sign that they can not succeed if they come forward. I was told that some might give up more than that, and had suggested they might jump off a bridge if Taubenfeld is found not guilty.

After having had some time to process what I saw and heard, more than anything, I feel powerless, knowing that whatever anger, fear, and frustration I might feel, there is little if anything I can accomplish to bring about change. Perhaps the presence of those who attended the trial to support Laiby gave him some encouragement as the defense lawyer tried to get him frustrated and catch him in a lie, but I am left wondering what, if anything else, I could do to effect change in a community of which I am not a part. I attended the trial wanting to give hope to Liby, and to other victims, wanting to believe that somehow, justice would prevail, and to believe that, finally, in communities like New Square the wellbeing of the children would finally take center-stage. It was this lack of power, and the wishful thinking it subsequently brought about, that, in the end, leaves me feeling so deeply sad and afraid.

Serious Crash Outside Kiryas Joel, Victim Heavily Entrapped

The victim’s name for Tehillim is Yosef Binyomin ben Dina Leah.

Emergency personnel are currently on the scene of a serious crash just outside of Kiryas Joel, Monday afternoon. 

The crash is on Nininger Rd – also known as State Police Road – and happened just before 1:00PM. It appears this was a head-on crash involving a van and the cab of a tractor-trailer.

 The victim is heavily pinned inside the vehicle, and rescue workers are in the process of cutting the vehicle apart to extricate the victim. There is at least one person with serious injuries, and a medevac has been requested to respond to airlift the victim to a trauma center. A total of two ambulances are on the scene.

Kiryas Joel Hatzolah and Fire Department are both operating at the scene.

Head of Girls Seminary in Israel that posed as a senior IDF officer duped dozens of women

Around 100 women claim they were enticed into relationships with a married, religious man who tricked them into believing he was an IDF officer •
 "He sent us all pictures from Gaza, asking us to pray for him, and he wasn't even there," one woman says.

Picture that the married man sent to women of himself 

A married man posing as a high-ranking military officer duped dozens of women into intimate relationships after meeting them online and spinning an intricate web of lies designed to garner sympathy, Israel Hayom has learned.

The man, who in reality is married with children and the head of a Jewish women's seminary, used a fake name and told women he was a 38-year-old single man from central Israel who was a major in the Paratroopers Brigade.

After one woman created a Facebook group outing the man, more than 100 other women joined, saying they too had been lied to and hurt by him. The first official police complaint is expected to be filed on Tuesday.

According to testimony shared with Israel Hayom, the women were told the man had tragic past relationships, including one girlfriend who was run over and killed after accompanying him to the airport, and another who was fighting cancer in the hospital.

During Operation Protective Edge last summer, he apparently told several women that he was stationed deep inside the Gaza Strip, and that five of his soldiers had been killed by his side. He sent pictures of the inside of armored personal carriers, adding color to his dramatic stories, the women said.

"He said he had a lot of money, property and family connections," said B., a 36-year-old single mother from central Israel who began a relationship with him in May 2014. "He said he worked for the Defense Ministry at several 'cover companies,' one of which worked to track funding to terrorist organizations."

At the seminary where he works, the man is in close contact with young women completing national service and with other young people.

According to B., "There's no question that he is a psychopath. He so calmly defrauded so many women over such a long period of time. He is evil incarnate. He would say over and over again, 'It is going to change soon, I will finish my reserve duty and this work, and we will be free to get out there and live out lives,' as if he hoped some woman would take him out of this hell, out of the elaborate trick.

"He said he was religious, but he was the furthest thing from God and religion."

'Your entire self is just devoted to him'

One of the women who said she was hurt by him did extensive research, and eventually uploaded his family photos online.

"I didn't have it in me to post it to the group with so many women I don't know, but it's enough for me if I manage to save one more person from this," she wrote.

B. said the manipulation took a turn for the worse during Operation Protective Edge.

"He used every bit of information to extort emotion, including saying that he was depressed because his friends had been killed while fighting alongside him," she said.

"He wrote to me, 'We took a bad beating. Many of my soldiers were killed,' and it broke my heart. All you can think about is this company commander in the Paratroopers Brigade, and your entire self is just devoted to him."

A 33-year-old woman from Hod Hasharon shared her experience, saying, "There was no writing on the wall. He got into character and stuck with it until the end. Now I am concerned for the girls at the seminary. They are 'crazy for him,' and he gives lectures on education. I saw a lecture he gave on controlling your evil impulses. It's shocking. This 'charm' must be stopped."

According to Aya, a 32-year-old single mother, "The women are talking about pursuing a civil suit. If everyone does, or at least if his wife starts the divorce process, then I will join them, and the same goes for a police complaint. I am getting married soon and starting this case now is just not suitable."

Iris, 39, from Beersheba, said she met the educator on the dating application Tinder: "Who could imagine that he is married? I knew that he was somewhat religious, and that he disappeared every weekend. He was all over the country in his officer's uniform that had all the correct ranks. He never made a mistake, he was very consistent with his story.

"He sent us all pictures from Gaza, asking us to pray for him and his soldiers -- and he wasn't even there."

Another woman, 39-year-old Hila, met him on a dating site six years ago.

"He would ask to meet in quiet areas, saying that he was with people all day long and had no energy to be around lots of people," she said. "To be honest, I fell in love with him immediately. I was desperate for a relationship. This kind of stupidity happens to us all."

However, the man slipped up in keeping his story consistent, Hila said.

"Toward the end of our relationship, he told me that his friend had died. A few months later, we got back in touch and he told me there had been a miracle and that his friend had awoken from his coma. In my eyes, there was one dominant theme in these relationships -- sex. That's all there was between us," she said.

Aya added that "there are women who are just torn apart by him, by these stories where he is always the hero. These stories just make you want to run to him and hug him, to protect him. He is great at telling stories, like fairy tales. Now we need to stop this crazy cycle."

The principal of the seminary where the man works sent a statement to Israel Hayom saying: "There is no side to take and no response. Everything will be revealed with the police; a different picture will come forward. As of now, none of these women have come forward to me or complained."

Satmar Rebbe told Rav Shteinman in 1945 in Switzerland not to make Aliyah because "Zionists live there"

Satmar Rebbe ... and Rav Shteinman ( Circled) in 1945 in Switzerland 

Crazy stuff. 

It seems that when the Satmar Rebbe escaped Romania in 1945 with the help of the Zionists, he settled in Switzerland before making Aliyah himself!

But that didn't stop him from advising people not to make Aliyah.....

What was good for the goose is not apparently good for the gander....

At any rate, Rav Shteinman's Rebbitzen went to see the Satmar Rebbe (G-D only knows why) and asked him if she and her husband  should make Aliyah, the Rebbe advised her not to, because, as he put it   " Zionists live there and you have to be extremely careful from them and stay far away from them" 

The Rebbitzen told him that her husband is a "big Yirei Shamayim and he knows how to take care of himself"

The Rebbe then said that he heard about Rav Shteinman and would love to get to know him.

I ask you guys, here is a Chassidic leader that saw what the Murderous Europeans were capable of,  and he knew of the huge mistake that he made advising Romanian Jews pre WW2, who held Palestine and American  passports, not to emigrate, because as he put it ... "Hitler will never come to Hungary and Romania" and all those that took his advice, subsequently perished, ....... so now that he is safely ensconced in the mountains of Switzerland, he gives the same  advice!

How did he ever hold on to his Chassidim?
And weren't there Zionists in Sakmar in Romania? Why was it ok to advise people to stay in Romania with the Zionists, but not ok to be with the Zionists in Israel?

Why was the Rebbe's  scare tactics different then the Meraglim that said:

'Ameiliek dwells in the area of the south, the Hittie, the Jebusite and the Amorite dwell on the mountain and the Canaanite dwells by the sea and on the banks of the Jordan?"

The cherry on top is that the Satmar Rebbe himself did not listen to his own advice and made Aliyah?

What is even crazier is that Satmar Chasidim hate Rav Shteinman,.
Why?
Did he kill anyone?
Did he steal from anyone?
Did he call Reb Yoilish names?
Did he curse the Satmar Rebbe?
Did he call him an Apikoras and a Meen?
No No No
the hate him because they consider Rav Shteinman a "Tziyoinie" 
Satmar call themselves "erliche yeedin" and they hate another Jew because their philosophy is different! 
So they hate, yes hate Rav Shteinman!
Sick Romanian barbarians!

SATMAR CALLS THE IRAN DEAL, PEACE!

Der Yid, Satmar Newspaper Joins "J" Street to Support disastrous Iran Deal,

Der Goy's Editorial supporting Iran Deal

I've said this time and again, that Satmar is slowly separating itself from the Jewish religion, like the Christians did 2,000 years ago. 

Now they no longer care about the safety and concern for any Jew that lives anywhere except if they live in Kiryas Yoel or Williamsburg. Like the anti-Israel "J Street," they mock Benjamin Netanyahu's concern that this deal with Iran is dangerous to Israel and it's citizens...

It's interesting to note that the Satmar gypsies constantly write that the Jews in America, by in large, did nothing when 6 million of their brethren were being slaughtered like sheep in Europe during WW2.

Ironically now, that Israel's citizens are being targeted by the Iranians, who have sworn to annihilate 6 million Jews that reside in the State of Israel, the Satmar barbarians mock and deride Netanyahu's efforts to warn the world that this Iranian deal is a deal of appeasement.

I will loosely translate parts of the Editorial:
I will comment in Red

Der Goy: "American leaders have tried since Ronald Reagen's presidency,to reach a nuclear deal with Iran"

DIN: This is a blatant lie, Iran during Ronald Reagan's times hadn't even started a nuclear program, and Ronald Reagen never even attempted to talk to Iran ....  it was Carter, the Satmar Chuusid that tried, so that he could free the American hostages!

Der Goy:"four presidents worked on this, four presidents were just "touching the walls" and  weren't successful, 
it was President Obama, that had the right tools to deal with them"
 ....
DIN: Another blatant lie and just 3 lines into their editorial....
Bush called Iran the "axis of evil" and never sought any deal with Iran! ...

****I will now jump to the part where they deride the only sane diplomat in the entire world, Benjamin Netanyahu...

Der Goy:"The one who is the most opposed to this deal is the prime minister of the State of Israel, Bibi Netanyahu.... 
Netanyahu says he doesn't even have to read the deal to know that it isn't good,this deal without him reading it, is the worst deal of the century"

DIN: Hellooooooooooow! Netanyahu never said that, because as CNN, ABC, CBS, Fox, Reuters, Associated Press,  all reported, that Obama and the State Department briefed Netanyahu days before it was signed! 
So we all know (except for Dee Goyim at Der Goy) that Netanyahu knew every single part of the deal!
And that's how he knew that this was the "worst deal of the century"
And why isn't Satmar opposed to the deal?? Aren't there Satmar guys living in Israel? 
Why oh why is Satmar FOR this disastrous deal?

Der Goy: In this time that all world leaders see that the deal must go forward .... the big "Baal Gaaveh" (The haughty one) doesn't see it that way! He is waiting with bated breath that the Iranians should violate the deal so that he can say "I told you so"

DIN: Insane analysis by a bunch of childish morons!
This crazy way of thinking is how the Satmar Rebbe analyzed the 1967 war...
These naive haters of Israel,  will come up with this kind of warped news analysis even while the lives of 6 million Jews are at stake!

Now a word to my readers: Israel has come under a threat with the shameful capitulation deal with Iran. The Iranian leadership never ceases to declare that Israel is the target of its nuclear program, a program titled "So long, Israel."  The leaders of the world powers, and U.S. President Barack Obama first and foremost, eagerly allowed themselves to be misled.  We Jews must not be dismissive of threats, even those that appear ridiculous. The 20th century taught us not to take it lightly when someone gets ready to annihilate us. At a fateful crossroads, Most U.S. Jews are joining up to help Israel in its just and necessary struggle. Even Jews who have never visited Israel are certain that their ability to live in security in the U.S. is mainly due to the existence of the strong, flourishing State of Israel. It's a real shame that Satmar and their minions are  abandoning its constituency. It's unclear to me whom it serves, but it's certainly not the interests of Israel, as the founder of the Satmar Chassidim made very clear decades ago. Throughout the history of the Jews, there have always been groups that turned their backs on their own people -- there's nothing new under the sun. The Jews will get along very well without them and after 2,000 years, we have our own place in the sun.

Forget it, I cannot continue translating this BS, I'm getting acid reflux ... from reading this crap!