I did a terrible thing in the 90s and my heart still hurts. I am writing because I am looking for the student I committed a crime against.
I was a literature teacher at the 'Traditional' high school, at 'Beit-Alliance'. I had a 'class' of wonderful female students .
I was young and stupid, and I had arrogance and I was drawn to the students who were eloquent like me, and had similar quick minds. I wasn't even aware of it.
Part of the matriculation was conducted orally, with an examiner who was a teacher from another school while I was sitting in the classroom.
On the day of the test, it was the turn of one of the smart and diligent students whose pace was slower.
She read a poem we learned (by Trainin, I remember exactly) and made a mistake in reading and interpreting it.
I failed her in the test, I knew that she was there throughout the year in every class and she deserved a good grade because she studied seriously, with love, attentively and persistently. She knew a lot, and it was a human and understandable mistake that the excitement and stress of the test created. She deserved a big boost and nurturing (what the hell are grades anyway!) I didn't give it to her.
I remember her mother calling me, I heard the tears but I hardened my heart under the 'professional' pretext. And it was pure evil and arrogance and stupidity.
I think about her all these years and want to ask her forgiveness, and am ashamed that I forgot her name. I want you to know that she was great and I was spoiled. I caused a very unnecessary injustice to her at such a fragile age. I can't take back the pain but I want to ask for forgiveness. Even if decades have passed, I am still filled with guilt and shame and pray that she has a good life.
Social network, help me find it? It is also possible to reach me in private email
ืขืฉืืชื ืืขืฉื ื ืืจื ืืฉื ืืช ื90 ืืืืื ืขืืืื ื ืืงืฃ. ืื ื ืืืชืืช ืื ืื ื ืืืคืฉืช ืืช ืืชืืืืื ืฉืคืฉืขืชื ืืืคืื.
ืืืืชื ืืืจื ืืกืคืจืืช ืืชืืืื 'ืืืกืืจืชื' ืืฉืืื ืืฉืืง, ื'ืืืช-ืืืืื ืก'. ืืืชื ืื 'ืืืื' ืขื ืืืกืฃ ืชืืืืืืช ื ืคืืืืช ืฉืชืื ืื ืืช ืขืื ืืื.
ืืืืชื ืฆืขืืจื ืืืืคืฉื, ืืืืชื ืื ืืืืจื ืื ืืฉืืชื ืื ืืชืืืืืืช ืฉืืื ืจืืืืืช ืืืื ื, ืขื ืงืฆื ืืืืจ. ืืคืืื ืื ืืืืชื ืืืืขืช ืืื.
ืืืง ืืืืืจืืช ื ืขืจืื ืืขื-ืคื, ืขื ืืืื ืช ืฉืืื ืืืจื ืืืืช ืกืคืจ ืืืจ ืืฉืื ื ืืืฉืืช ืืืืชื. (ืื ืืืื ืื ืืื ืืืืื ืช ื'ืืื', ืืืืืจืื ืืชืขืชืข ืื)
ืืืื ืืืืื, ืืืืข ืชืืจื ืฉื ืืืช ืืชืืืืืืช ืื ืืื ืืช ืืืฉืงืื ืืืช ืฉืืงืฆื ืฉืื ืืื ืืืื ืืืชืจ. ืืื ืงืจืื ืฉืืจ ืฉืืืื ื (ืฉื ืืจืืื ืื, ืื ื ืืืืจืช ืืืืืง) ืืืขืชื ืืงืจืืื ืืืคืจืฉื ืืช ืฉืื.
ืื ื ืืืฉืืชื ืืืชื ืืืืื. ืื ืืืชื ืงืจืืื ืจืืืงื ืืื ืืคืฉืจืืช ืืืืื ืื ืกืคืจืืช, ืืื ื ืืืขืชื ืฉืืื ืืืชื ืฉื ืืืืจื ืืฉื ื ืืื ืืืืื ืืืืืข ืื ืฆืืื ืืื ืืคื ื ืฉืืื ืืืื ืืจืฆืื ืืช, ืืืืื, ืืงืฉื ืืืืชืืื. ืืื ืืืขื ืืืื, ืืื ืืืชื ืืขืืช ืื ืืฉืืช ืืืืื ืช ืฉืืืชืจืืฉืืช ืืืืชื ืืืืืื ืืฆืจื. ืืื ืืืชื ืจืืืื ืืืืืืง ืืืื ืืืืืคืื (ืื ืื ืืืื ืฆืืื ืื, ืืื ืืจืืืืช!) ืื ื ืชืชื ืื.
ืื ื ืืืืจืช ืฉืืื ืฉืื ืืชืงืฉืจื ืืื, ืฉืืขืชื ืืช ืืืืขืืช ืืืงืฉืืชื ืืช ืืืื ืืชืืื ื 'ืืงืฆืืขืืช'. ืืื ืืื ืจืืข ืฆืจืืฃ ืืืชื ืฉืืืช ืืืคืฉืืช.
ืื ื ืืืฉืืช ืขืืื ืื ืืฉื ืื ืืื ืืจืืฆื ืืืงืฉ ืืช ืกืืืืชื, ืืืชืืืืฉืช ืฉืฉืืืชื ืืช ืฉืื. ืื ื ืจืืฆื ืฉืชืืข ืฉืืื ืืืชื ืืฆืืืื ืช ืืื ื ืงืืงืืชื. ืืจืืชื ืขืืื ืืืืชืจ ืืื ืืืื ืฉืืจืืจื ืื ืื. ืืื ืืืืื ืืืืืืจ ืืช ืืืื ืืื ืื ื ืจืืฆื ืืืงืฉ ืกืืืื. ืื ืื ืืืคื ืขืฉืืจืื, ืื ื ืขืืืื ืืืื ืืืฉืื ืืืืฉื ืืืชืคืืืช ืฉืืฉ ืื ืืืื ืืืืื.
ืจืฉืช ืืืจืชืืช, ืชืขืืจื ืื ืืืฆื ืืืชื? ืืคืฉืจ ืื ืืคืจืื.
Chana Pinchasi (ืื ื ืคื ืืก