Eight years ago Weinstein left the ultra-Orthodox fold, in which she had grown up and which had seen her married at 17.
Only one daughter maintained contact with her
That daughter has written a letter to her father the ex-husband of Esti!
Loosely translated by DIN:
Father
I read the letter that you wrote to your daughters (my sisters).
Of course you did not include me, and sent me nothing.
You didn't even console me for the loss of my mother.
The truth be told that you haven't contacted me in seven years.
Even after Mommy died, the only thing you requested from me is to repent, and you made it clear that the day that I repent would be the day that I would again be your daughter,
and I don't know if I want that.
Father
I am your daughter unconditionally, I am your daughter because I am your daughter!
I read what you wrote and the truth is that I didn't expect anything different.
It is clear that you are denying everything, you live in a closed society and the only thing that counts is what the people that surround you, say.
Even if you desired to apologize to everything you did to Mommy... you cannot ...
You must appear and present an air of righteousness and innocence.
What was important to you in life was only what was dictated to you by the closed society that you live in.
You told me countless times that I should do what I want in the house, but outside, I should conform so that I don't embarrass you..
Father
I would rather live my life to what I believe ..to act outside ...with the "embarrassments" but to be honest with myself and not hide anything ..
you wrote "libie libie al challelehu"
Father, I am still amongst the living, and I am aware that for you I'm not...
Please don't lie to me and say that you cry for me.....we all know that the day I went off the derech you erased all memories of me.
just that you know, that I will not take revenge it is not worth it ..
You ask what I see when I see myself?
I look at myself and am proud! I went with truth...I got up and built a new life for myself .... a life that I believe in ... a life without lies...I built my own business...I raised and educated a child that is smart and happy..a boy that you have chosen to ignore because he doesn't wear a kipah!
I don't want you to daven for me, I can find my way by myself.
Maybe you should pray for yourself that your eyes should open and see that religion isn't the only thing in life ...that here are other things in life such as choices and feelings and your own blood!
I will not go into the dept of this story so as not to dishonor the memory of my mother, but every one who is familiar with this story knows that I am telling the whole truth and nothing but the truth. We have evidence of everything that was written in the book (the book that Esti wrote about the atrocities she endured being married to a Gerer) and their are quite a number of people in the family that would testify to that!
What did you expect? That a frum lady would tell her innocent daughters everything that occurred in the privacy of her bedroom? It would have opened a whole world and would have revealed the fact that you were living a double life and a lie!
Mom was quiet so not to damage and ruin your reputation and the reputation of the family ...
She was quiet until she could no longer remain silent!
You can continue the lie as to what led her to take her own life ....
With my own ears I heard you say that you "do not want to know, and it's not important"
Mom fought like a lioness ... a lioness that protects her cubs .. But her cubs (her other daughters) didn't want to hear from her...they threw her down the stairs screaming that she was not their mother ...you (her other daughters) did not know Esti and considered her a ghost!
The most difficult period for mom was the psychological abuse, the seven circles of hell, including threats to her life!
No! Mom did not choose suicide! You left her no choice!
What kind of life is it to be a mother and have no children!